Disappointed.
I've been trying to figure out what I think about this whole thing since the story broke, and that's the word I've settled on.
Disappointed that Beale has thrown away a brilliant career to send the kind of hateful, idiotic, mysognist, offensive, juvenile shit that anyone with two brain cells to rub together should know better than to send.
Disappointed that Hooper and other senior players don't seem to grasp the seriousness of what Beale has done.
Disappointed that a female staffer can't last a day without sexist shit being thrown at her.
Disappointed that there seems to be discontent and disorganisation in the Wallaby camp, whether it's friction between players and management, uncertainty over the roles of team officials, the coach skipping training to drive Patston to the airport, or just plain shitty communication (or some or none of the above, for all we really know).
Disappointed that some of the players and posters on this forum think it's more important to "back your mates," even when they've acted disgracefully, than to be a real friend and help them understand what they've done. Sticking up for your mates regardless of the shit they pull creates the culture that produces texts like Beale's.
The only thing I'm not disappointed about is that I don't give Fairfax any of my money to read their drivel.
I don't think we'll ever get the full, shameful story. I've heard plenty of rumours, both online and off. I don't know what's true or what's not, but none of it would surprise me. And that's pretty damn disappointing too.